13 Things I Learned in 2013

     It is that time again that we look back at the memories before the year ends. Did we change? Did we improve? Life's turning point happened? Realization? And of course, what did we learn this one whole year?

     For me, this year is probably the most intense year I've encountered so far. It was a blast. It was a roller-coaster ride. Most definitely because I moved back to Philippines and started college. Well, here are the things I've learned this year :

     1. College is easy.
            I said it. Maybe because I'm still a freshmen but still, it's a piece of cake. Lessons are easy, cheating is easy, making friends is easy, being friends with your professors is easy. Everything is easy. As long as you use your common sense, you'll pass. Common sense over knowledge, that's college. Oh, and it's easier if you live in a dorm!

      
      2. Filipinos are the best people to be friends with.
               Nothing else to say about this. That's just about it!


      3. Refrigerators are very important!
                I can live without a kitchen stove but not without a refrigerator! Milk, juice, yogurt, veggies, ice cream. I want them in my everyday life!


      4. True love exists.
                It's something you have to find out for yourself. It will be very unique and different from the others. You'll just feel it when it's real and be amazed of it.


       5. Money ruins relationships
                At least for me. Ask for my help, I'll help when I can. You gave me your word when you'll pay, pay at the exact time you said you will. nine out of ten, no one ever does that. I always approach first and all I hear are excuses. And you just ruined my trust for you.


        6. I will never ever gain weight
                 Proved it this year. It doesn't matter how much I eat, I WILL NEVER GET FATTER. Or maybe I'm doing it wrong....


         7. Whoever invented or started "Filipino Time" is stupid.
                  I just don't get it. We should meet so I could kill you, but of course you'd be late.


         8. Taking a bath in the morning and in the evening is a really good idea. Haha!

        
         9. I love Sisig
                  Why did I just met you now? You are one of the most beautiful thing I ever met<3


        10. Everyone is getting older
                   Kobe's getting injured now and then. My mom's face is aging. My elementary classmates are working now, some have children already. I'm turning twenty two next year!


        11. I will never get old!
                      Except for my age. But I will always have a childish heart, I will always love playing with kids, I will never get tired of pranks and making fun of people, and myself, I will always be that happy kid because he just got his tummy fed! My heart will forever be young.


          12. Beer pong is <3


          13. Having your room on a fourth floor building without an elevator is a really pain in the ass. Literally, a pain in the ass, when you really need to go to the bathroom!

What Is Love?

It's not a been there, done that thing.

Love is not just about being in a relationship, being someone's boyfriend or girlfriend, being married and having a family. There's more to it than just that. And I just realized that recently.

Love is all about the person you love. You become selfless, you think of that person's happiness more than you think of yours and sacrifices are made. It's all about being there at the very beginning and wanting to be there until the end. You always wanna see that person, you always wanna be with that person, you wanna do everything or anything together. And you love every bit second you spend with them whatever it is that you're doing. You always miss that person even if you just saw each other two hours ago. They are the first thing that you think when you wake up and the last thing you think before you sleep. And you can see your life with them, your future life and it's not weird at all. And you really feel the feeling of love when that person you love loves you back. It's something you don't really feel often, but when you do, you'll know it's love.

But sometimes, love has its own way. Not becuase you love that person, that person loves you back, too. Or not because you both love each other, you can just be together. Love has its own way. And if it's real, then nothing can break you two apart whatever the situation is and you don't have to rush for it because you both have your whole life to spend with each other.

About 3 years ago, I was really down, stressed and felt like shit. What brought me up was when I read these words and act upon it, make it my motto in life, which states something like "Take risks, take a lot of chances and make every moment count. Live in the moment and have fun."
My life changed. I accepted my past and didn't care about my future. I was living at the moment. And I was really enjoying every second of it. Even until now, I try to enjoy what  I have right now and don't care about what's gonna happen next. And then there's love. And I find myself breaking my motto in life. Can I really wait a year just for a girl? Can I really limit myself even though I don't have to? Is this really worth it? Is she worth it?

I didn't even think twice, the answer was simply a YES even before it came out of my mouth. Even my ownself can't believe with that conclusion. I'm finally living the life I wanted, living it to the fullest. And then suddenly this happened. One year is a long time, a lot can happen in just a year. And I know I can find a girl and we can just be together whenever we want to.

Maybe love is an exception to my motto in life. Because yes, I can wait for a year or maybe more if it's the person I love we're talking about. Yes, I can limit myself even though I don't have to but because I want to. Yes, this is worth it. And yes, she is definitely worth it. Because I love her. And I guess
this is love. Or maybe, true love.

You're Powerful Than Your Emotions

"You can't always get the perfect moment. Sometimes, you just have to do the best you can under the circumstances."


 What if we apply scientific method to love?

Problem :
 
     How will you fight your emotions? How will you accept something that you don't wanna accept?

Hypothesis :

      Let go.

Experiment :

       Start thinking what's good for both of you.
       Stop forcing things to happen when it doesn't want to happen.
       Start accepting that not everything that seems meant to be... are meant to be.
       Stop yourself now before it gets worse.
       Stop thinking of the other person's feelings.
          If you can't do that, then help that person to make the feelings fade.
     
Analysis :

       If you succeed on doing all of these, then everything will be okay.

Conclusion :

       When you were a child you hated something, do you still hate it now? When you were a child you loved something, do you still love it now? You were forced to eat the most disgusting food for you, vegetables. And now you can't live without it. Sometimes in life, even if we don't want to, we need to. And if we force ourselves to do it, then maybe we'll get through it.

I JUST SOLVED LOVE USING SCIENTIFIC METHOD! Maybe this can be done. No, I know it can be done but a lot of heartache on both sides will be felt along the way. Is this really the right thing to do? Because sometimes, when you're trying to do the right thing, you're actually doing the opposite. We never really know until it's just a memory. And then it's either you'll regret it or be glad because you made the right choice.

It's really, really hard to fight something you don't wanna fight. But one thing I learned before is that you don't get to decide for other people's choices. And that could be one of the worst feeling ever.

I know this will be one of the hardest decision
you will ever have to make. For me, it will be, too.
I promised something and I don't like breaking my
promises, specially to you.
And I think I know exactly what to do.
If you can't fight, I'll fight for you.
If you're confused, I'll make it clear to you.
If you can't carry yourself, I'll carry you.
Until you're back on your feet again.
And I'll make sure that you will be.
Even if it hurts so much.
Even if it's harder than the first time I let you go
I will let you go, again. For the second and the last time.
If ever a third time comes, I will never ever let you go again.

Life Update

      It`s been quite a while since I last posted here! Actually, it`s been forever! September 2012 was the last time I posted here and a lot has happened since then...

         College. It`s been a roller coaster ride since I enter this college life. For so many years I have waited, I`m finally a college student in the country I wanted to live in. I was probably one of the happiest person when I found out that I`m officially a college student to this university I`m currently going in, Centro Escolar University (CEU). After four months of being here, being a college student, I could say that I spent it wisely. Maybe not on other things like going to every party there is, hanging out with old friends or going to different places, but on my college life, I was so active, so energetic and so focused that everything that happened so far was totally all worth it. Learned a lot of lessons, not only those things they teach in school but also about being independent, being more confident, friendship, love, and about who I am. I felt like I was in the right place and at the right time. I was on the right track of my life.  And all the sacrifices and the hard work was definitely worth it.

          Friendship. One thing I was so worried was this, having friends. I`m a really friendly guy but I don`t really get well along with others. Being away for seven years, my personality changed. I was used to what I was back in Japan. Where I could say that I have a lot of friends but I don`t really have one. It was really hard for me being comfortable with someone, even my own friends. But when I get here, when I enter college, everything changed again. It felt like I was normal again. It felt so good when I found my circle of friends. Yeah, most of them are a little younger than me. Yeah, some of them are still a bit immature but I found myself comfortable with them and that`s all that matters to me. Maybe it`s only been four months but being with them almost everyday, I knew they are the one I was looking for for a long time. So I didn`t waste any time to get to know them, to be part of them, yes, maybe sometimes I tried too hard and tried to fit in because sometimes I can still feel the loneliness I felt before. But even when I don`t, everything comes naturally and I`m really glad they are the ones I met. We`re still getting to know each other. And I know this is not a short term thing, this is a long process that takes trust, courage, understanding and faith. The first semester of this year is almost over. Some will be separated, some will have to go, but one thing I`m sure of is what I felt when I`m with them will never change and will always be a part of me, of who I became.

           Love. Before I come back here in the Philippines, I promised myself that I won`t be entering any kind of relationship until I`m ready again or until I want to be in it again. But not so long after I got here, my future was almost changed. Maybe I wasn`t really in a relationship but we still had something between us. I just broke the promise I made to myself. But I don`t regret it. I don`t regret what happened, what I did or what I was involved with. Again, it taught me a great lesson. And the memories will be treasured forever. Then not so long after that, actually while in it, I fell in love with this one girl. I knew myself that she would be perfect for me and I would be perfect for her. I let it go because I know it wasn`t right and that I`m not sure of anything yet. One thing I was sure was that I like her and I`m falling for her. I found some good enough reasons that I should go for it and I did. And it was a total mess. I was a mess. Everything was good in my head but when I actually do it, it was more difficult and more complicated than I expected. Maybe the time isn`t right yet, maybe it`s her, maybe it`s me, maybe it`s what surrounds us, or maybe we`re just not really meant to be in that kind of relationship. What we are now and what we have now is one thing I will always appreciate and enjoy. But I will never lose hope until my heart gives up on her.

           I made mistakes, took risks, learned lessons, achieved things, gained friends, gained confidence, hurt someone, experienced new things and learned more about myself. I don`t believe that everything happens for a reason. I believe that what you reap is what you sow. Problems come and go, people come and go, things come and go. But when you have a positive outlook in life, nothing or no one can ever bring you down.