Keep learning. Keep moving forward.

   I hate people who you can`t depend on. The fact that I`m like that. I hate people who depend on me always. That`s just selfish of me, and hating them for not getting what I want is just ridiculous. So I figured out that from now on, I will try not to depend on anyone. Even on family. I`m not saying that I will do everything on my own, but I will just try not to ask anything from them. Because seriously, I don`t think most of them care, except for the family. And if I don`t depend on them, they won`t depend on me. That`s a win-win situation. This would be my goal for the month. And of course, to eat more! And be myself more, and enjoy life more.

More of "we", "us". Less "I", "me"

    When I think about you us, it makes me smile.

           In a relationship or "love", we shouldn`t just think about the other person or just yourself. Otherwise, you will either get hurt or become selfish. It`s important that you think about the two of you. But before you can do that, you have to make memories with her, you need to have something between the two of you. Love often fails when the other person doesn`t feel the same way for you, when you`re the only one who`s in love. And during this state, you`ll think or treat that person like a princess, like a goddess. Like she is perfect. That`s where you start thinking just about the person and how she makes you feel. You don`t think of yourself. That`s why you get hurt. But don`t worry because that`s just in your mind, that`s just all your imagination.  And you can always change that. Change how you think, and everything will follow through. It`s not that easy? I say yes, it is if you`re willing to.

          Of course there`s a way on how not to get to that state where you think of the other person as god-like. This will take some guts and you should be prepared. When you start liking someone, keep getting to know them, hangout with them, be with them. If you`re sure that you really like this person, let her go. When I said `let go`, you don`t literally let them go. Letting someone go means that you are prepared by their answer. Which there`s only two, either a yes or a no. If she said yes, then you just made your first step to her heart. If she said no, then be cool with it, still be friends, don`t start ignoring her and accept the fact the she`s not that into you and move on. THERE`S NO OTHER WAY ON GETTING THE GIRL YOU LIKE BUT TO TELL WHAT YOU FEEL FOR HER. AND TO HAVE CONFIDENCE.
    

Day 19 - Disrespecting your parents.

Often. I often do. Sometimes, you just get tired, and things you don`t wanna say are coming out of your mouth. Non-stop. But I still respect them. I just get mad so fast that I shout at them. But I love them. I just need to control myself more. And understand them more.

Positive thinking

          Happiness is a state of mind. And like
            all things, it takes practice. Devote five
              minutes a day to smiling. Just smiling. And
                 after a while, it`ll come naturally.



         Sometimes, despite your best efforts otherwise,
            life will give you lemons. When that happens, you`ve
                got two choices. You can wear sour face, or
                                                 .....make lemonade.


         When one thing ends, something else begins.

Explore yourself. Express yourself.

                     Take one step at a time.
                     Life is about experiencing and learning.
                     There`s no need to rush.
                
                                       Take a risk everyday.
                                       Face your fear.
                                       That`s the only way you can
                                       be free.

                                  Make lots of mistakes.

                         Keep trying.
                
                                                Keep learning.

                           Keep improving.

                                      And you will be one hell of a man.

    

Day 18 - Your beliefs.

I don`t know how to answer this one. If it`s about my religion, then I`m a christian. And yes, I believe in God. But, also, I believe in myself. I think that`s about it.

   Today, I didn`t really wanna go to work.
   I argue with myself if I`m gonna go or not.
   After a while, I decided to go. I asked myself
   why should I go to work today. I need to save
   money for my college.

                   Today, I realized something very important in life.
                   If you have a goal, it`s really hard to give up.

        From now on, I`m gonna have more goals.
        Whether it be a simple goal or a really big one.
        It doesn`t matter. What matters is, to reach
        that goal.

Don`t change for anyone.

      Always show yourself to the world.

                    No one is ever the same as you.

                                                                You are enough.

Love is so crazy

Love, whether unrequited, secret or whatever kind of love, will make your life miserable at some point. -- That`s what I realized today. That even you have a perfect/happy life, when love came and it didn`t go well, everything will fall apart. Suddenly, your life sucks. Love is so crazy. I believe that without love, we are nothing. But love--it makes us miserable. It makes us fall apart. Or make us the happiest person alive and give us the best feeling we could ever have. I`ve never succeed in love. Maybe because I`m not giving my best. I want to, though. But for me, its not that easy. Maybe I should try to get rejected as much as possible. And maybe after a while, I`ll get over the fear. I don`t really know how love works, how I should do it or show it. I have no idea about love.
I wanna experience it so bad. That`s all I want. That`s all I`m asking for.

I just wanna go somewhere peaceful for a few days and think about life, love. Maybe scream a little.

...there is no one alive who is youer than you

What a woman wants is somebody who listens to her, cares about her, goes out of his way to make her feel special. It's all about how the girl feels about HERSELF when she's around you.

They always have that "ideal" or "perfect" man that they want. But in reality, girls are simpler than we think. As long as you're not completely selfish/arrogant/needy/negative, a nice girl will be happy with a guy who provides a caring ear to listen and soft arms to snuggle with.

So go out there and get her. Talk to her. There is really no other way on getting the girl you like but to talk to her. Get to know her. Be nervous if you`re nervous. Be yourself, you`re unique. That`s what`s important and that`s what you should show to the world.

love yourself

       

                 stop comparing yourself to the rest of the world.
            you are a unique and special person.


  there's always something unique and special about a person, about you.

Are you about to give up?

               Giving up takes 5 seconds
                  while fighting takes a lifetime.

       In life, there`s always an easy way out,
          but it definitely won`t satisfy you, nor will make you happy.
       Instead, it will make you miserable, depressed and stressed.
              So, would you rather give up because it`s an easy way
              out and it only takes 5 seconds of your time..
              but have a miserable life?
      
                          Or keep fighting until the end and be happy,
                         satisfied and live your own dream? Become
                         stronger, have more confidence, and believe
                           in yourself more?

     There`s always that time that we just want to give up,
     because there`s nothing we can do. THAT`S WRONG.
     THERE`S ALWAYS WE CAN DO. WE CAN ALWAYS
     TRY. Even if we fail 1000 times, we can try 1001 times.

                      Next time you`re about to give up on something,
                        think clearly. Think of what will happen if you
                  give up and then think of the possibilities if you don`t.
                       We always have a choice. Will you fight?
                          Or will you give up?

                         YOU CHOOSE. AND DON`T FORGET THE CONSEQUENCES THAT FOLLOWS.

             My room. I love it.
            Maybe there isn`t a lot of memories here,
                 but I spend most of my evening here.
            All of the things I need are here.
                I won`t trade my room for any other room.

           
Oh, BTW, that`s me. Making love with my room. :)

There are couple of things I wanna introduce you in my room.

From the left wall, you can see a flag. Philippine flag. Because that`s where I came from and I think it`ll be awesome to hang it up there.

On the right is my lovely computer. Oh I love that so much! And behind it is a wall with a couple of post-it ( there`s actually more now than when I took this picture). What`s written on those post-its are things, mostly quotes, that gives me confidence, encourage me, and to make me believe in myself. I read it as much as I can everyday. And so far, it`s doing its job!

And those puzzle mats :) When I was a kid, I`ve always wanted to have one of those. Unfortunately, I didn`t get to have one. So now that I`m capable of having it, there it is! Makes the room so colorful, too. LOL

Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.

Most of my year last year was not good. I`d say 80% bad and 20% good. Lot of things happened. Not big things like someone died but, things that made me feel so lonely, sad and emotional. That was last year. This year, 2011, was a pretty good start. I promised myself that I will never be like that again, that I will change for the better. That I will be happy. And so far, it`s working. Learned a lot of things this year.

So to sum it up, 70% good and 30% bad. So far, I`m doing good this year. Had some downs lately but my ups are way higher than my downs.

Past is past. Learn from it. Start new. Start fresh. Live, laugh and love.

                                I`ve been a bad stalker.
                                At least that`s what it looks like.
                                Time to end this and start the fire
                                that should`ve been started a long time ago.
                                 
                        No more bullshit

                                                                   No more jokes

                             It`s time to be serious and get her.

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!

`I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

*This story, true or not, wants me to go out there and tell her that I like her. The fact that I think she likes me too, I`m too shy to just go for it. But this story, this story just wants me to to right up to her and say everything I think of her.  I`m going for it. Thank you for whoever made this sad, beautiful story.

                 "IT`S NEVER TOO LATE."
     I hope people who vandalize would vandalize something that would inspire whoever sees it instead of vandalizing gang names and nonsense images.That`s when we`ll experience.....
world peace......

                                     .......everywhere. 

  

                                                Losers makes excuses.
                                                          Winners looks for a way.

How to be successful

Everyone can be successful.
If you trust yourself and believe
that you can, then you can.
But that`s impossible, there
will always be someone who`s
more successful than you.
       -If you think you`re successful, you`re as successful as the other people out there.

            "It`s when you stop complaining that you will be successful."

This is the tricky part.
You will not be successful if
you wanna be successful. You
have to believe you can. In sports,
it`s easy to say we want to win. But
it`s not enough. You have to believe
that you can and will win. It`s the same on
being successful. You can`t just want it. You
have to believe you can. Then you take
action. Then it happens.

Summary of my week

             5 days of school
             7 days of work
       1 week of falling in love

One hell of a week? Could be. But not really. Wanna know why. It`s simple.
        1 week of falling in love > 5 days of school + 7 days of work

Next week`s goal: EAT MORE!

Lately, people have been telling me that I`m getting thinner. I also know that myself. And I know why! It`s cause I haven`t been eating properly. I don`t skip a meal but I only eat a little. And I`ve been eating bread only for lunch. What`s weird is, my weight isn`t changing. It`s been 55-59 kilo since 2 years ago. Haven`t changed a bit. But I`m pretty sure I`m a little fatter a year ago. I thought you get fatter when you get older?  Maybe it`s cause I`ve been working out lately, too. I don`t know. But what I know is, I`m gonna start eating more and more. HELLO FOOD!

Be thankful

                                    It`s when you stop complaining that
                                   you will find the true happiness in life.
                                                        
                         Start being thankful for what you have.
                         Start to appreciate what you have right
                              now before it`s too late.

Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.

I love music. Whether it`s popular or not. If it pleases my ear, I like already. I don`t even care about the lyrics at first. Just the sound, the beat. Then later on, the message of it. And I`m pretty sure there`s a lot of band/artist who isn`t popular but definitely have good songs. And I love discovering them!

Show yourself to the world

                   Today, I realized that I`m kind of stupid. Like on
                    simple things. I`m losing my common sense time
                  to time. And for  some weird reason, I really like
                 myself being that. I actually laughed at myself after
                  I thought about it and realized that sometimes I`m
                   really really stupid.


    I am stupid at times. And it just made me love and appreciate myself more.

              Why?

                         Because I think I`m starting to be true to myself
                          and, acting the same way as I acted before but
                         this time, I`m confident with my every action.

Day 15 - Your favorite tumblrs.

I don`t really use or visit tumblr if you`re talking about the site. But I love funny cat pictures with captions in it. Something like this.

Oh after I searched that I found this one, too.

Not a funny one but I think it`s a really good picture. The cat, even he`s so small and probably weak if you look at him on the outside, sees himself as a tiger. Maybe he`s only a cat but he has a heart of a tiger, a spirit of a tiger, and a power of a tiger. As it says on the picture "what matters most is how you see yourself." If you see yourself as a confident, strong, can achieve anything person, then people will see you as that kind of person, too.

Believe in yourself as this cat believes in himself. And you will be who you want to be. Don`t ever let other people to stop you from doing what you love. Don`t ever change just because someone doesn`t like you. Be who you are, be who you want to be. And you will succeed, not only on your life, but also on other people`s lives. Believe in yourself.